Unaccepting

thank you for giving me semi-closure. it'll be a long time before i get over this. i can't believe it seemed so easy for you--like we had nothing. but i honestly can't remember you ever going out of your way to make me happy, either. i spoiled you, maybe.

i hope you stay in touch, somewhat. even though you aren't so good at expressing yourself. for all i know, green is red to you. so lost.

and i do know where you're coming from. thanks for letting me know you weren't happy anymore so i'm not stuck with someone who doesn't want to be with me.

i really don't want to date again. ever. my standards have always been so high... it makes it really hard. you've seen the guys in STL--not exactly good enough for me.

you see, what i really needed to hear was, "melissa, you are amazing, and i'm a fool for hurting you, but you'll be okay. i promise."

i didn't get anything close to that.

may you accidentally drink many wheat beers and may your personal hell involve sleeping with your legs touching.

cheers